Not every moment is like the one in this picture…
We have fun, we laugh, we joke, we go places, we compete, we poke fun at each other, we act out stories, we sing, we read, we have deep conversations…
but there are moments when he misbehaves, he wants me all to himself, he gets upset when things aren’t his way, he hates no’s, he wants to do things every minute, wants to play basketball off the balcony, wants to fly his plane outside without a coat in the frigid weather…
but somehow we compromise.
I get upset, he asks for forgiveness, we hug it out and we move on.
Last night, he had many of the latter moments. He asked me for forgiveness more times than I can remember & each time I found myself forgiving a little less. Eventually, I didn’t want his apologies – I just wanted two minutes of uninterrupted time to myself.
As I planned to rush through the “tucking in” process, he grabbed my hand and asked to pray the Lord’s Prayer with him.
I reluctantly began … “Our Father in Heaven, hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread…” we both prayed quietly, stumbling upon each other’s words. Then his tone got stronger, louder and boldly he prayed – “…and forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors.” If I had opened my eyes, I would have probably found him peeking at me to see if I heard that.
I heard that this little guy, who was in so much debt of forgiveness before me – who had fully acknowledged his wrongdoings, most of which he probably had a hard time controlling in the first place, was asking that I would have the same mercy to him as my Father had to me.
“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8 flooded my thoughts…
Christ took me, as I am, in all my shortcomings and all my fleshly desires and adopted me into His family. He loved me and forgave me. And He continues to forgive me every single day. Many times a day. He doesn’t take into consideration that I had just repented an hour ago, He separates my sin as the east is from the west. (Psalm 103:12) His love for me is unconditional. There is no end to it. There’s no bottom to the depths of His mercies.
“A thousand times I’ve failed, still Your mercy remain…”
His love – what a great example.
To love when it’s least deserved is the greatest of loves. To give when you can’t expect anything in return, the greatest of sacrifice!
“And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil…” we concluded.
And as though he was mine, I kissed his forehead a good night and went on my way leaving him with the sweetest smile and peaceful dreams.
…Leaving his bedside with a lesson carved into my heart by Jesus’ whispers.